Yesterday I posted a pissy post. I don’t like doing that. I don’t want to live in the past or in the negativity, so today I wash my hands of that and step back into the light…into the joy.
I live a happy life. I have a career I love, a family I enjoy and freedom that is not allowed to many. I also want my children to be free.
I have heard comparisons of the school system to the jail system and I have to admit, there are similarities. Cinder blocks, being told where to be and when, needing to ask permission to leave the room, etc. But I think it is unfair to roll the two into one. At least I try not to make that leap. School is great for some I am sure. I just don’t think it is necessary. I also, don’t think it is necessarily healthy due to the stress it can elicit in, especially, young people. So my kids stay home. And this is where I see the joy…as long as I don’t get sucked into societal fears and the education from outside-in paradigm.
This is what I see. A family together, not always the perfect Norman Rockwell picture but together. Fun. Curiosity. Freedom. I think the greatest thing I love is the freedom. But freedom can sometimes seem scary. Like the animal who has been in a cage its whole life, those first steps into a life where you don’t have a “master” can be scary. A day where you can really choose what you are going to do in the day is unfamiliar. This is when taking someones hand to lead you is tempting. But why? Because we really don’t have the freedom we think we do? Because going against the grain is unknown and the unknown is scary? Probably a little bit of all of these things.
But so much joy comes with freedom. Once we take those first steps and see the world isn’t going to crumble. Once you see your children learning and you are not sure how since you didn’t “teach” them that. They just know. They….just….know.
Sure we have the responsibility to search, discover and be curious. But has anyone known a child that isn’t innately these things? How did you lose your desire to discover and be curious? Did you really? Probably not.
Today I am blessed. Blessed to have taken those first steps into the unknown. It is still sometimes scary when we take steps further from what is normal but every step has been worth it to see the happiness. To see the life my children are living.
I have noticed that the only times that I feel stressed or harried is when I get sucked into the darkness. I have fears that are not warranted. That has been proven to me time and time again. I am learning to trust the innate ability to learn as much as I trust the innate ability of the body to heal and grow. How many times do I have to see it happen to completely let go of the darkness? I do not know. But I do know that it is getting easier and brighter every day.
I encourage you to take those first scary steps and trust. Live joyfully and free.